earthships

earthships - part II:

game on

gotta get around to playing this game..

retrograde

i have come to the point now where i can just sense what is happening in the sky above me, or at least more specifically, when mercury goes retrograde. it is only the tinyest of things that makes me question this small planet's orientation.

i can see when the most innocuous statements uttered in a moment of thoughtless oblivion are contorted to mean, G_d-only-knows-what in the mind of the listener. just today when the furnace man came out to replace some small & yet tremendously over-priced circular plastic part, subsequent to his question of "does she bite?" & seeing the fear in his eyes.. i said to him "don't worry, i won't let the dog bite you." he looked at me as if insulted and said, "you won't LET her bite me?!" at which point i could not help but wonder, what did he mean? what could have possibly been offensive in what i said?

then later this evening when responding in writing to a blog post, i realized the vast potential to misconstrue my comments. i saw the potential for coming off cold and cerebral when the intention was to present a spark or a seed of relief, which can probably only be nurtured in the fertile soil of a receptive soul. the seed itself bears no emotion, but has the potential to grow into some flowering or fruit-bearing tree.

well, this is all what prompted me to check and see if mercury was retrograde because it just all had that certain feel to it. lo and behold the little planet started spinning backwards earlier this week! it seems after a point, one just comes to know what it feels like when communication does not flow in the expected direction.

even now i may be lax to write this during such a precarious time for communicating.. but then again, what is the spirit behind this change of direction for the planet that rules communication? here is an opportunity to move in another direction & to try something new from a different perspective.

so now i am noticing that when mercury is retrograde i have the opportunity to think differently about whatever it is that presents itself. i can try not to offend anyone, but it seems kinda inevitable that someone will take offense. at least i can be aware of the myriad of possibilities available with the new direction.

if i were a boi

- Beyonce Knowles Lyrics
*ugh! no patience to figure out how to disable the ads..
maybe later! :P

the magician

it was too late
when I found out
she was made all out of
detonators & plastic explosives
and that I had held her
too close 
for too long
now 
I find myself blown 
into bits
left picking up 
scattered pieces
& holding my heart
in disengaged hands
here is only a ghost 
of a former 
self
nothing
but a trick 
for the eyes
projected thru 
this deep fog
with smoke 
& mirrors.

Dharmis, Yogis & Zen

ok so I started a Dharmis, Yogis & Zenists group on Twitter. Not sure how to promote it..

Promoting the Lesbians group was simple enough but this seems a bit different. Perhaps I'll leave it to promote itself and see what happens! Hahaha.. :) Yeah, that sounds about right. Perhaps members will be attracted thru bhutatathata..

Ok, I admit, I am just looking for an excuse to use the word, bhutatathata because that is my favorite word.. :D Let's say it again.. bhutatathata.. bhutatathata.. yay! bhutatathata.. *sigh* Alright, I feel better now.

Hmm.. so where to find other Dharmis? I know they are somewhere out in the ether.. I guess I could start to scrounge Twitter for them, but then what? I have no particular reason for wanting to find them. Just something to play with, I suppose, like this blog post. :P

Oh, but I made the image above for the group then decided against posting it there, so I'm posting it here instead for now.. Nevermind, I just posted the image at the group too.. Hmm.. It was pretty uneventful. It will be nice if the developers improve the capabilities of Twitter Groups.

mandala 001

ok so.. i've noticed that most of my blogging, writing, sentences.. etc seem to start with "ok, so.." anyway, the rest seem to start with "anyway." but none of that is what I intend to blog about today..

I was inspired to make a first attempt at creating a mandala without really knowing what i'm doing here.. so I am posting the result..



also, here is what i've noticed.. since I made the mandala, I have been tempted to compare it to other mandalas, which is a device of ego to attach itself to something. :) silly ego! :P hahaha..