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bah! humbug!

Cindy-Lou Who: Santa, what's the meaning of Christmas?
The Grinch: [bursts through the Christmas tree] VENGEANCE! 
The Grinch: [calmly] I mean. . . presents, I suppose. 

mandala 001

ok so.. i've noticed that most of my blogging, writing, sentences.. etc seem to start with "ok, so.." anyway, the rest seem to start with "anyway." but none of that is what I intend to blog about today..

I was inspired to make a first attempt at creating a mandala without really knowing what i'm doing here.. so I am posting the result..



also, here is what i've noticed.. since I made the mandala, I have been tempted to compare it to other mandalas, which is a device of ego to attach itself to something. :) silly ego! :P hahaha..

perspective

In joyful anticipation?

There she sat blithely on the edge of apprehension,
blowing her usual smokescreen out into the world
and feeling thankful for a warm body
to press against the cold morning air. . .

struggle

wtf does this mean? and why am i compelled to write it?

 

flying blind thru faith
on the edge of reason
without a net
and with no regret
pouring my soul
into an unknown whole
and filling it up

my cup runneth over
and i drink
from being
both
here & there
being everywhere
growth

where unseen eyes
peer inside
and finally see
it is she
who is at the core
of my freedom

gum

is this what i want?
sometimes i think to myself
still i await answers

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om gum ganapatayei namaha

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Migration - The other night. . .

Originally posted on Wednesday, 3 September 2003

i dreamed of a dragon
just as i was perched precariously on the edge of faith
a great fierce, firey dragon spirit came to visit me
and rested itself precariously in a tree outside my window
it was such a realization for me
that dragons are real
even if frightening at times..

great, black, scaley, fearsome creature
when i first saw it, it was asleep on a low lying tree limb
outside my house at home
i walked right past as he or she awakened
i couldn't believe my eyes as we exchanged glances
i went inside the house and everyone else seemed to know that the fearsome dragon came from time to time
just as its huge head filled the window
preparations were being made to deal with the event
then i awakened
feeling blessed. . .