WooHooo! Geek-out! Le Geek C'est Chic!

Finally! A game that reflects the inner workings of my brain! *s*
Nothing against my gyrl, Samus Aran!
[WARNING: GEEK ALERT!]

rant of appreciation

today i am thankful for my health and my family and my friends and my work and my mind, and my potential and my opportunities and my dog and all my stuff and a car to drive and new ideas and fresh air and sunshine and green grass and blue skies and butterflies and hummingbirds and hawks, and dunhill cigarettes and 100% agave tequila and fresh lemonade and walkie talkies and reiki and chai tea and tai chi and aikido and hwa tahn bong and music and mp3 players and books to read sanskrit and NDSLs and computers and online communites and blogs and wikipedia and anything that makes me laugh and zippos and beautiful women and thoughtful words and jalapenos and riding mowers and all-in-one printers and translucent green boxes and to be continued and. . . more to come. . .

[thanksgiving day]

In joyful anticipation?

There she sat blithely on the edge of apprehension,
blowing her usual smokescreen out into the world
and feeling thankful for a warm body
to press against the cold morning air. . .

struggle

wtf does this mean? and why am i compelled to write it?

 

flying blind thru faith
on the edge of reason
without a net
and with no regret
pouring my soul
into an unknown whole
and filling it up

my cup runneth over
and i drink
from being
both
here & there
being everywhere
growth

where unseen eyes
peer inside
and finally see
it is she
who is at the core
of my freedom

gum

is this what i want?
sometimes i think to myself
still i await answers

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om gum ganapatayei namaha

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GotDammit!

Woke up thinking about work. . . WTF does it mean? What do I want to do? I dunno. Wish I did. Short sentences today. Gotta take LGM to St. Stephens. Why? Just took her to CHS Saturday. *sigh* Oh well, guess it doesn't matter. Sent off for PACE sh*t yesterday. :-/ Apparently, I only care about things while I'm doing them; then all interest just falls away. Is that normal? Who cares? WTF is normal anyway, and what's it got to do with me? Yes, I am questioning and answering myself this morning. Yikes! Sometimes I feel a bit panicky inside. *deep breath* Then it goes away. F*ck!F*ck!F*ck! Just free-flow thinking (or not) this morning. Gotdammit! *sigh* OK, am I angry about something? What? No. Just confused. Panicky. Crisis of Faith much? Damn! Gotta walk the dog. F*ck!