the magician

it was too late
when I found out
she was made all out of
detonators & plastic explosives
and that I had held her
too close 
for too long
now 
I find myself blown 
into bits
left picking up 
scattered pieces
& holding my heart
in disengaged hands
here is only a ghost 
of a former 
self
nothing
but a trick 
for the eyes
projected thru 
this deep fog
with smoke 
& mirrors.

bah! humbug!

Cindy-Lou Who: Santa, what's the meaning of Christmas?
The Grinch: [bursts through the Christmas tree] VENGEANCE! 
The Grinch: [calmly] I mean. . . presents, I suppose. 

Dharmis, Yogis & Zen

ok so I started a Dharmis, Yogis & Zenists group on Twitter. Not sure how to promote it..

Promoting the Lesbians group was simple enough but this seems a bit different. Perhaps I'll leave it to promote itself and see what happens! Hahaha.. :) Yeah, that sounds about right. Perhaps members will be attracted thru bhutatathata..

Ok, I admit, I am just looking for an excuse to use the word, bhutatathata because that is my favorite word.. :D Let's say it again.. bhutatathata.. bhutatathata.. yay! bhutatathata.. *sigh* Alright, I feel better now.

Hmm.. so where to find other Dharmis? I know they are somewhere out in the ether.. I guess I could start to scrounge Twitter for them, but then what? I have no particular reason for wanting to find them. Just something to play with, I suppose, like this blog post. :P

Oh, but I made the image above for the group then decided against posting it there, so I'm posting it here instead for now.. Nevermind, I just posted the image at the group too.. Hmm.. It was pretty uneventful. It will be nice if the developers improve the capabilities of Twitter Groups.

mandala 001

ok so.. i've noticed that most of my blogging, writing, sentences.. etc seem to start with "ok, so.." anyway, the rest seem to start with "anyway." but none of that is what I intend to blog about today..

I was inspired to make a first attempt at creating a mandala without really knowing what i'm doing here.. so I am posting the result..



also, here is what i've noticed.. since I made the mandala, I have been tempted to compare it to other mandalas, which is a device of ego to attach itself to something. :) silly ego! :P hahaha..